Alone (but not lonely)

I usually don't get too personal in my blog, perhaps dreading looking back in a few years time at a post with regret, but I'm going to now, just because this particular painting inspired me to start a new journal (a moleskine) for my thoughts. In doing so maybe you will identify a little more with the paintings, with me,  or with your own private musings that never see the light of day (and probably for good reason).

'Alone'. This is how I feel. But I like it. In fact, it's delightful.

I never know what to do. I blunder.

I do consistently paint. For that I am happy.

I help others, now and then. I do my best.

Oh, the joy of being human.

Some online creators successfully hold a carrot on a stick, enticing all these women to believe they can sell their art, be in biz, etc. And these creators do model this well. But, sometimes it really bugs the shit out of me.

Interestingly enough I'm seeing some creators leaving behind old labels that they started out with...such as "the Goddess" or "the Astrologer". What will I leave behind?

If I was just an artist, how would that be?

Difficult.

Why do I struggle so?

I do love to empower women. I love being a witch. I am more than an artist. I am a guide. And so it is.

Written Dec. 15, 2015 in the wee hours during an Aquarius Moon.

About Kathy

Kathy Crabbe inspires soul-seekers to discover their innate gifts and talents through intuitive, creative expression in safe, relaxed and playful environments. She has been an artist forever and a Creative Soul Guide since awakening her own intuitive gifts at age forty.

Kathy lives in sunny SoCal with her husband and pet muses, Abby the shaggy black dog and Djinn Djinn, the small scruffy one in an adobe home they built themselves. Kathy is painting a Lefty-a-Day for 365 days and posting all works in-progress on Instagram at http://instagram.com/kathycrabbeart

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Leo New Moon Musing

New Moon in Leo – August 9, 2010

This month the New Moon enters the fiery, fixed sign of Leo, the lion. During your New Moon Meditation allow yourself to open your heart for this is the key to awakening your spiritual self. Invite your inner child out to play, let your soul’s sun shine upon your inner and outer playgrounds and admit it - you are special and you are loved.

On August 9 when the New Moon enters Leo get ready to:

- Bring culture to your life. - Have the guts to be visible. - Be proud of heart. - Work with Leo’s energetic and extroverted energy to inspire self-confidence. - Be dramatic! - Feed your creative appetite. - Bring home treats for your inner child.

More About Leo – the Lion

Time of Year – July 23 – August 23 Quality – Fixed Element – Fire Planetary Ruler – The Sun Anatomy – Heart, spine Natural Sign of – 5^th House Color – Gold, orange, scarlet Gemstone – Amber, diamond, ruby Tarot Card – Strength Goddesses – Amaterasu, Bast, Cybele, Hestia, Ishtar, Sekhmet, Tara, Vesta

Introducing The Moon Muses

The Moon Muses are intuitive guides and question askers that offer insight and wisdom along with exercises to heal and inspire you. They are creative leap takers forming a glowing moonlit bridge between your rational self and your higher self, a self that dwells in pure intuition, clairvoyance (clear seeing), meditative reflection and dreaming. This month you will meet Ruby, a Gemstone Guide and a Lefty Oracle Muse by the name of Sexy Sunflower. I encourage all of you to create a Moon Musing Journal to record your monthly moon explorations and creative longings (more about this in my eCourse, Awaken Your Divine Feminine Soul).

A Message from Ruby

Sometimes words just aren’t enough to express the wisdom of the heart so take a moment to let her ruby redness fill your soul, your heart and your mind with shining, luscious bounty.

Now, just sit and absorb, feel and allow yourself to receive, just receive and with thanks and gratitude to the Divine, feel yourself blessed.

How are you feeling now? Happy? Sad? Alone? Fulfilled? If you’re feeling lonely and would like to share your heart with someone special then you will be able to do just that – first trust, and then they will appear.

Heart Affirmation:

I ____________________, am fulfilled and happy as I am right now, in this moment.

Each day I share my best qualities with others, which are: _________________________ and I am open to receiving and giving love.

My heart is full. Any sadness and anger I might be feeling are released as I write down these words and let them go.

I _________________________, release my feelings _____________________ so that I may be fully heart-present in this very moment.

If you’re still feeling heart-sad then request help and guidance from your Guides and your Higher Power allowing your burdens to be lightened and your cares and concerns acknowledged, accepted and then released.

My Version of Leo – Year of the Sexy Sunflower

"Sexy Sunflower" is part of a series of 500 or so left-handed (my non-dominant hand!) drawings I created over a period of five years. These drawings were later turned into an oracle card deck that I use for giving Soul Readings.

Sexy Sunflower has appeared to remind all of us to Bring Forth Our Brilliance!

So remember:

Stand Tall, you are a sunflower today as the New Moon enters Leo.

For today you will play, even if it’s just for a moment. For today you are a Sexy Sunflower and you will laugh and love and shine your rays into the darkness so that you can see into all corners of the earth. Today you will dance the Dance of the Sunflower and create your world in colors of your own choosing for Love is your Guide.

What color is your joy? What sound?

Affirmation: I am God/dess. I am complete.

Kathy Crabbe is a soul reader and artist who has devoted her life to exploring spirituality and creativity with passion and integrity. Her art and writing have been published and shown throughout the world at museum shows, galleries, magazines and books. Through online resources Kathy is able to help other soul seekers express their unique gifts and talents in empowering ways. She maintains a blog and website sharing her experiences with the psychic, intuitive realms and the world of art making.

The artwork above is from Kathy’s Goddess Zodiac deck and Lefty Oracle deck, two of the four decks she incorporates into her Soul Readings.

Kathy is currently teaching  Awaken Your Divine Feminine Soul at the Wise Woman University. “Celebrating the lunar cycles is an important part of building a spiritual framework. Each month we can tune into her cycles to keep ourselves on track. At the new moon we plant our intentions for the month ahead, at the full moon we watch them flower, and at the waning moon we release and share our wisdom with the world. As women we are naturally able to resonate with these cycles in deep and meaningful ways.”