Becoming Animal

I'm sharing the words of writer, David Abram from his book "Becoming Animal An Earthly Cosmology" not only for your sake, but also for mine, so I will not forget them as they are a way of thinking and realizing our place in the world. Each day as I draw from life, outside surrounded by nature, birds, wild things and hot skies, and then later on when I paint abstractly, at home with ambiguity and passion's many flavours, I struggle to find a way to be in a world quite un-accepting of the artist's way. So it's writers like Abram who guide and encourage me with their ponderings.

The computerized mind when left to its own devices, all too easily overlooks the solid things of the earth. Skilled in the rapid manipulation of symbols, it neglects the stones and the grasses that symbolize nothing other than themselves. Dazzled by its own virtual creations, the digital self forgets its dependence upon a world that it did not create, overlooking its carnal emplacement in the very world that created it.

Bodily perception provides our most intimate entry into a primary order of reality that can be disparaged or dismissed only at our peril.

An addled and anesthetized numbness is spreading rapidly throughout our species.

There are those, however, who are not frightened of grief; dropping deep into the sorrow, they find therein a necessary elixir to the numbness. When they encounter one another, when they press their foreheads against the bark of a centuries-old tree, or their palms into the hand of yet another child who has tasted prematurely of wrenching loss, their eyes well with tears that fall easily to the ground. The soil needs this water. Grief is but a gate, and our tears a kind of key opening a place of wonder that's been locked away. Suddenly we notice the sustaining resonance between the drumming heart within our chest and the pulse rising from under the ground.

David Abram, Becoming Animal: An Earthly Cosmology

Visit with the Angels

Kathy Crabbe, She who dwells, 2012, acrylic, charcoal and pastel on canvas, 48 x 48. This morning I requested one last vision in honour of the Scorpio Super Moon and the Angels showed up (Glory Be!) They took me all over the planet and I saw and learned and absorbed and asked many questions until finally I'd earned my wings. What did it? Well, when I gave it all up - surrendered - stopped trying. And then all that was left was a voice and a vision. I could see beauty everywhere and in everything and I know my responsibility is to share this. I'm not giving up!

What I saw: Cages and boxes and prisons of criticism and guilt and pain and commerce that we've built with our thoughts, minds and hearts.

Why I'm not giving up ~ Bragsheet

  • LOVE (first and foremost)
  • Been a full time professional artist since 2000
  • Been onstage in Hollywood with Michelle Shocked and one of my 'Lefty' characters called "Ginny" enlarged to life size as part of her International Women's Day Show
  • Founded a very popular writing group, "The Writer's Cafe" and an artist's critique group
  • Exhibited my art for 7 years at Laguna Beach's renowned Sawdust Art Festival
  • Created and taught the most popular Divine Feminine eClass of the year at the Wise Woman University
  • As a Creative Soul Guide I have given 100's of clairvoyant and mediumship readings including written and illustrated transcripts
  • Demonstrated silk painting on HGTV
  • Written, illustrated and published many chapbooks and ebooks including The Goddess Astrology Playbook
  • Created 4 decks of oracle cards including The Creative Soul Cards
  • Participated in 20 plus annual art fairs over the past 20 years (which means at least 400 and counting)
  • Participated in many gallery & museum shows with work in permanent collections of museums and libraries
  • This year (as of June 2012) have participated in 10 art exhibits, including 3 library exhibits in May alone
  • I am the messenger ~ are you ready?

Growing up: a journey in paint, pencil and printmaking

I recently completed two paintings that I'd been working on for some time (see below) and was very pleased to have the opportunity to display them in a solo exhibition at Sun City Library. It was interesting to hear how people related to the work; especially the abstracts. They saw all kinds of interesting shapes, designs and ideas that inspired them in many ways such as the feeling of entering an expanded space like the galaxy or tapping into the intuitive, unplanned nature of the brushstrokes. One man saw landscapes, another loved the color and the circles, one woman saw a Samurai, another loved a drawing of a dead squirrel, and another liked the cactus sketches. The library programmer, Shirley Wible who has a BFA in fine art appreciated hearing how my work had developed over time beginning with my LuLu in Laguna series which represented my inner child, and then came the rebelliousness of the Lefty Series done entirely with my non dominant left hand; a breakthrough for me intuitively and a representation of my inner teenager and now, with my current work, A Journey into Intimacy I have matured enough to delve more deeply and courageously into my emotions by expressing vulnerability through an exploration of self and place. I often like to post new paintings on Facebook to see what people think and to have them come up with suggestions for titles. I've posted a few responses below.

Kathy Crabbe, Hafsol, 2012, acrylic, charcoal and pastel on canvas, 48 x 48”.

Suggested Titles: Sun Tea Infinity Morning Tea Paper Moon Luna Tea

Kathy Crabbe, Goddess No. 1, 2012, acrylic, charcoal & pastel on canvas, 48 x 48”

Suggested Titles: Egyptian Pagan Alien Samurai TimePiece Silent Dancer Horns of the Moon Torn Coatlicue Gently Rising Trip to the dentist

Sun City Library Opening

Me & my remarkable husband, Mark

Enter Goddess No. 1 or How to dream a new reality

Kathy Crabbe, Goddess No. 1, 2012, acrylic, charcoal & pastel on canvas, 48 x 48” I can feel a new series of paintings coming on and as usual, the idea came to me at a low point when I needed it the most. After a very dark conversation with a good friend I penned an equally dark blog post, then after 24 hours I realized that it didn't even sound like me so I nixed it and began to go deeper.

As I sat and stared at my current painting in progress I asked for a vision and then I meditated. Next, I found myself in a swirling, milky green crystal where I encountered a fire spirit and so I dallied a while and when I came to I had the idea for a new series to be called: The Lost Goddess Series and of course my last painting (see below) just had to Goddess No. 1

Connecting with the fire spirit reminded me of all the work I've done in the psychic realms and as a Creative Soul Guide and teacher of the eClass, Awaken Your Divine Feminine Soul and it made me wonder why I had not brought these 2 realms together in my new work. And when I asked that question, POOF everything fell into place and it made sense why this last painting had a female face within it.

I am hoping to commune further with this Goddess to see if she will tell me her name and what kind of magical qualities she has, so stay tuned!

My Facebook friends suggested these names for her: Egyptian Pagan Alien Samurai TimePiece Silent Dancer Horns of the Moon Torn Coatlicue Gently Rising Inner Currents Trip to the dentist

*This painting is available for purchase, please email Kathy Crabbe for more info*

Notes from The Seth Material

Subjectively speaking, you are everywhere surrounded by your own greater reality, but you do not look in the right places. You have been taught not to trust your feelings, your dreams, or your imagination precisely because these do not fit the accepted reality of facts.

They are the creator of facts, however. In no way do I mean to demean the intellect. It is here, however, that the tyranny of the fact world holds greatest sway. The intellect has been denied its wings. Its field of activity has been limited because you have given it only facts to go on.

Each event of your life is contained within each other event. In the same way, each lifetime is contained in each other lifetime. The feeling of reality is "truer" then in the dream state. You can become consciously aware of your own dreaming. You can also allow your "dream self" greater expression in the waking state. This can be done through techniques that are largely connected with creativity.

Creativity connects waking and dreaming reality, and is in itself a threshold in which the waking and dreaming selves merge to form constructs that belong equally to each reality. You cannot begin to understand how you form the physcial events of your lives unless you understand the connection between creativity, dreams, play, and those events that form your waking hours. In one respect dreams are a kind of structured unconsious play. Your mind dreams in joyful pleasure at using itself, freed from the concerns of practical living. Dreams are the minds' free play. The spontaneous activity, however, is at the same time training in the art of forming practical events.

From The Nature of The Psyche, A Seth Book by Jane Roberts

 

A life in art: drawing and painting from life & inner need

Kathryn V. Crabbe, My My My Precious Love, 2012, acrylic, charcoal and pastel on canvas, 48 x 48”."

To create is only to reveal what essentially is. It is the vivid recollection of the as-yet-unknown in the known. ~ Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala

Nothing is less real than realism. Details are confusing. It is only by selection, by elimination, by emphasis that we get at the real meaning of things. ~ Georgia O'Keefe, The Poetry of Things

Unlike Georgia O'Keefe, my own still life drawings are filled with detail. Life is in the details. Details can be infinitely small, often go unnoticed and are over-looked, which is something I care about in relation to objects and to people.

My current series of nature drawings were created with the hard line of pencils, pastels and occasionally with watercolors (when I'm around water). I often choose subjects so filled with minute detail that they become a thing of abstraction. Details are confusing, which is my intention. I appreciate and value the ambiguity, metaphor and poetry that accompanies abstraction. My large paintings are also abstract, but without a lot of detail which acts as a sort of counter balance to the hyper realism of my nature drawings.

Elimination and editing is key, as it is in life. By releasing detail from my paintings I can focus on the essentials which are often spiritual and symbolic. There are hard choices to be made and discipline to be followed (not a popular concept I realize) in the building of a structure and a firm foundation for a life in art.

Kathy Crabbe, Wild Cucumber, 2012, pencil on paper, 8.5 x 11”.

The drawings in this post and on my art website capture my wild surroundings in the Southern California inland desert valleys, but so too does "My My My Precious Love" pictured at the top, but in a different way. I am at a time and a place in my life (my mid forties) where abstraction calls to me louder than anything else.

The artist must be blind to the distinction between 'recognized' or 'unrecognized' conventions of form, deaf to the transitory teaching and demands of his particular age. He must watch only the trend of the inner need and harken to it's words alone.

Wassily Kandinsky, Concerning the Spiritual in Art, published 1911.

P.S. Select drawings are now available for purchase on my website on a private page. To view these drawings please email me for the password.