Blogging is my lifeline

In Process. Acrylic & pastel on masonite, 48 x 48 inches. © 2011 by Kathy Crabbe Damn it's hard to start painting when I tell myself that I won't be blogging about my Journey into Intimacy Series anymore.

It feels like a void is opening up and I'll just keep falling.

It seems as though this blog is like a lifeline to the world for me. Without it I feel lost and even sapped of the energy necessary to start painting.

WOW! I had no idea how important it was! Just knowing that my poetic ramblings pre-painting had to be heard, or at least put out there is important (but with my Mercury in Leo, I shouldn't have been  surprised!)

The fact is I have to paint and print and write and blog because it makes me feel good and strong and healthy.

Raw in the Sea of Love

In Process. Acrylic & pastel on masonite, 48 x 48 inches. © 2011 by Kathy Crabbe As I focus on the painting I block all else out although the trees shimmer and beckon inviting my poetical mind to play. I rest my head, my brain heavy, calling upon my stillness. Eyes closed, I prepare to emote, to be vulnerable, sexual and raw in my mark making. To sing, to live, to be fully alive, awake and free.

"Down here in the Sea of Love where everyone would love to drown." ~ Fleetwood Mac, Sara

AbEx

Finding Heaven. Acrylic & pastel on masonite, 48 x 48 inches. © 2011 by Kathy Crabbe

"I have never thought that abstract painting was non objective. Abstract Expressionism is about attitude, change, and ideas. Non objective paintings are simply decorative. Without concepts, paintings become another medium that is described by the materials used, like ceramics or fiber art." ~ Richard Jackson, Art Forum Magazine, Summer 2011

I want to fall in love again with each painting I do.

Just like a prayer

In Process. Acrylic & pastel on masonite, 48 x 48 inches. © 2011 by Kathy CrabbeI am frozen from un-painting. Each stroke awakens something inside me but it's slow going. Too slow. Not painting for several weeks has hurt me. I've shut down in unknown ways. I want me back. F this S. Now that feels good t'say. Tomorrow I paint again, and tomorrow and slowly I start to feel the painting come alive inside my skin and it becomes real.

"I close my eyes, oh god I think I'm falling. Just like a prayer I'll take you there, it's like a dream to me." ~ Madonna

Day one in the new studio is now over.