I Deserve It

I can breathe again! It's been a whirlwind three weeks with the opening of my new eCourse and lots and lots of soul readings, but today I go back to painting - a steady diet is required!! I can feel my body melting into joy.

"This guy has prayed for me And I have prayed for him This guy was made for me And I was made for him... I have no regrets There’s nothing to forget All the pain Was worth it."

Lyrics from "I Deserve It" by Madonna

Pisces New Moon keywords for me: restraint, tempered with mysticism, passion and discipline.

Spring Equinox - listening to old friends on CD - Birch Island Party 2007, Friday night - not really missing my home town because my heart is still there and always will be.

The smell of mulch and fertilizer fills my senses...I've been planting, it's spring!

I'm also studying astrological charts right now exploring how the planets/signs/houses act in relation to the entire chart and other planets/signs/houses. What verbs, adverbs apply? This is a study of aspects, of interaction, of relationship.

I'm learning more about singletons, missing functions and elements in an astrological chart. These kinds of things can relate to areas that erupt out of nowhere in one's life, transforming us in explosive ways. On the other hand, we may overcompensate in these areas, becoming an expert. One can't tell from studying the chart which way things will go - that part is up to the individual. A great book about this subject is called "The Magic Thread, Astrological Chart Interpretation Using Depth Psychology" by Richard Idemon. Richard comes from an acting/drama background and loves to infuse archetypal meaning and mythology into a chart interpretation. He turns the planets into actors, the signs into the roles they play and the houses into the stage.

Currently my most requested astrological readings are the Past Life Reading and Turning 40 - a Mid Life Soul Reading. Both these readings combine astrology with psychic reading which I find to be a wonderful mix of left and right brain intuitive reasoning.

A Shamanic Journey with Jura - SPRING GIVEAWAY

Spring is here and it is the absolute best time of year to plant your seedlings of intent for the upcoming year, so get busy!

In honour of this momentous occasion I have invited my good friend Jura Scott to offer a Shamanic Journey to the winner of this Spring Giveaway Contest.

Jura will spend 15 minutes shamanic journeying for one lucky winner and will follow up with an email containing a transcript of that journey. She requests that you find a quiet place to meditate or relax during the journeying process and she will be emailing you in advance to set up a good time for your journey.

To Enter This Giveaway: Please leave a comment, your email and a question for Jura below. The winner will be chosen just before the upcoming New Moon on April 13th, 2010.

ABOUT SHAMANIC JOURNEYER, Jura Scott:

Jura is a creative being who is building a life that honors her values and expresses who she is. Jura is devoted to self discovery and the sharing and exchanging of those findings with others who are doing the same. WHAT IS A SHAMANIC JOURNEY?

Shamanic journeying is an expanded state of awareness brought on by rattles and a frame drum. You will experience an awakening and enhancement of your spiritual capacities and your journey will be undertaken with a specific purpose in mind. WHAT ARE THE BENEFITS OF JOURNEYING?

The revelations you receive can be used for problem solving, well-being and healing; for yourself, on behalf of others and in the service of the planet. A SAMPLE JOURNEY This is a shamanic journey that Jura did for Dot on June 13, 2009. (Transcribed from notes written after the journey.) Dot's Question: Where should I go next, east or west?

I began in the place where I start all of my shamanic journeys, the beautiful wooden bridge in Scotland. A mill used to stand on the shore. The bridge stretches from grassy bank to grassy bank and on the right bank stands a huge willow tree.
Standing on the wooden bridge I could hear the ice cold, water rush over moss covered rocks. As I looked out it was foggy and distant almost like a bad focused camera or not having your glasses on. I couldn’t seem to zoom in for a close up of the area and I couldn’t work things out so that I was viewing from my own eyes. Instead I was seeing myself.
From above came the seagull flapping his wings furiously over my head. He looked smaller than in previous journeys I thought. He flapped and poked and prodded and began steering me toward the large tree that sat on the right of the shore.
I could see a small hole about the size of a tooney (a Canadian two dollar coin) at the base of the tree. Soft moss covered the roots that stuck out of the ground. The grass around the tree felt like plastic astroturf or fake plastic grass on my bare feet. Now, I was inside of my body looking out of my eyes.
I looked down at the hole and then suddenly the seagull and me were sucked into it at the same time. We came into the base of the large trunk with a thud. It was dark, cold and silent. The floor was hard packed mud and cool to the touch. A kind of black, matt box came up out of the earth and enveloped us. I sat on the floor in the corner of the box and the flaps of the lid closed above us.
Then the seagull spread out his wings as if to fly, but pressed his back and wings against the lid of the box in a flying position. We began to rise, slowly, up and up and up.
I didn’t feel afraid, just curious. The box stopped rising and the seagull opened the lid flaps. I rose and looked out. We were at the top of the trees. The box was secure on a big branch, propped up by smaller branches all around.
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All the while I’m asking the question in my mind, “Where should I go next, east or west?” The atmosphere was misty, a bit damp, a bit foggy, but warm. It may have just rained. For miles and miles were round, fluffy green trees and green grass and small bumps of hills. It was beautiful and peaceful.
Jura: “Is this East or West? I’m not good with directions.” He shrugged his shoulders.
Seagull: “I only know North or South because that’s where I fly every year. “
Jura: “Where’s North?” He pointed up. “Where’s South?” He pointed down. Then I got a vision of Mr. Howard's classroom, my grade 7 teacher who loved to teach geography. I saw the big map he used to pull down from the canister above the chalk board and North was indeed up and South was down on Mr. Howard's map. The acronym “Never Eat Sour Watermelons” (North, East, West, South) came to mind. So I figured the seagull and I were looking to the right of North and now we were looking East.
Jura: “Should she go East?”
Seagull: “Yes, that’s where it all began for her. And that’s where she will be buried.”
Jura: “Is she going to die?”
Seagull: “Eventually everyone dies. That is where she will be buried” he said again. “This is where the trees with roots are. “
Seagull: “She wasn’t really ever yours. She’s going back to where she started.”
Jura: “What about the West, can’t I see that? Shouldn’t we take a look at the West?” He didn’t answer.
Then the box lid flaps started to close and I sat down on the floor in the corner of the box again. The seagull repeated the process of spreading his wings, but this time positioned himself on the floor of the box. We started to descend breaking and snapping the small branches and twigs that had been holding us in place. Snap, pop, crack. The sound was violent and loud.
3.
We got to the base of the tree and we climbed out of the box. I felt a bit annoyed that he hadn’t answered my question about the West. I was getting a vibe from him that he felt he had answered my question and didn’t feel the need to elaborate any further; that wasn’t part of the deal.
Then we found ourselves out of the tree and back on the bridge.
I looked down the roaring river. On one side (the East side) I could still see the greens and trees and hills. On the other side, as far down as the river travelled, there was a large canvas that stretched from the ground far, far, far, up in the sky covering anything that you might see of the West. Painted on this canvas were abstract shapes in very flat colours; light terracotta, tan, and creams.
I wasn’t happy about this. I didn’t like the idea that my client asked me to do something for her and I was going to end up coming back with half of the information. I needed to tell her what’s good and bad about the East and what was good and bad about the West. He looked at me and rolled his eyes.
The seagull flew above the bridge about 20 feet in the air and started to poke a hole and tear the canvas. Suddenly I was up there peering through the hole. I looked through and down first and I saw the edge of a cliff way, way, way, down. I thought of my friend's sister who drove her car off of a cliff in B.C. When I peered directly ahead through the hole, I saw rows and rows of mountains, the Rockies. I was over top of them as if in a plane flying closely -- then the seagull suddenly burst through the hole and began to fly way from me, over the top of the mountains. He said looking back at me, "They’re very pointy, and very sharp, you can really hurt yourself."

Jura's Interpretation: When Dot came to me for a Shamanic Journey she had just turned 75 years old and her health wasn’t great. She knew that it was time to sell her home and make other arrangements for her final years.

Dot was making a difficult decision… whether to go out west to British Columbia, Canada and live with her daughter or return to her hometown on the opposite coast (East) of Canada and live with her sister. So her question was carefully formulated as “Where should I go next, East or West?”

When I entered into the trunk of the tree I found myself wrapped in a black box not unlike a “black box” or a flight data recorder (FDR) which logs information such as speed and altitude on an airplane as well as carrying beacons to help find the aircraft in a rescue. . The black box could also have been a cockpit voice recorder (CVR) which logs all voice communication in the cockpit.

I felt Dot was in need of a bit of a rescue. She needed to make a move before her ill health progressed. She could not decide what to do. So I proceeded with the journey sitting in the black box. My guide, the seagull traveled with me as usual.

Jura Scott

About Jura Scott: Jura is a creative being who is building a life that honors her values and expresses who she is. Jura is devoted to self discovery and the sharing and exchanging of those findings with others who are doing the same.

To enter the giveaway: Please leave a comment below along with a question for Jura and your email. The winner will be chosen just before the New Moon on April 13, 2010

Pisces New Moon Bohemian Jeweler, Lynn

New Moon in PiscesMarch 15, 2010 12:01 pm PDT

Take time to celebrate the New Moon in Pisces by listening deeply with your whole soul as you become acutely aware of your feelings allowing your sensitivity to feed you. This month's New Moon artists are Lynn - a spiritually inclined self proclaimed bohemian jeweler from Montreal, Quebec and and Heavy Metal artist, Steff Green from Auckland, New Zealand.

Lynn - Les Bijoux Créa-Lune

Shop: lesbijouxcrealune.etsy.com Blog: lesbijouxcrealune.blogspot.com

I am a true Piscean with all the traits of my sign: easy going, instinctive, compassionate, sensitive, imaginative and artistic. It is so obvious to me that Pisces draws me in a certain direction along which something develops through my imagination.

Creating is a form of dreaming for me and where I find my peace. Sometimes I get so completely absorbed in my environment and my jewelry making that I tend to exclude everything else and find it difficult to come back to reality. I rarely put my designs on paper unless it’s a custom order, preferring instead to begin my designs with a feeling, an idea that inspires me through creative process. I tend to follow my intuition which I consider a gift.

Frame of Thought - River Shell Framed Pendant

When I was younger I used to form mental images of things that I had never before perceived in reality. On the other hand, I sometimes feel that some of my best work comes from outside of myself. I am very critical about my work and myself. Sometimes my jewelry doesn’t turn out the way I imagined and I get frustrated and start to doubt my work. On the positive side, the Piscean symbol features two fish swimming in opposite directions and I feel that this duality allows me to have confidence in my work and myself once again.

Vintage Style Moonstone and Brass Earrings

Most Pisces take the easy way out in life and never attain the degree of recognition that they deserve - we have to stop doubting ourselves. A good example of this is the under pricing of my work. One thing I sometimes regret is not having enough ambition in life and not being motivated enough to go through with some of my previous objectives because I didn’t believe I could do it. I lacked confidence in myself. Today at 50, I am more self-assured than I have ever been. I am finding peace and despite my sensitive personality, I am a survivor. When life is hard to take, I create my own reality and I find that meditation helps to calm the internal struggle within my soul.

Pisces have a mysterious way of figuring out what a person needs. When I work directly with my customers, I often have a sense of which necklace will bring out their personality. I also find that receiving feedback for my work is really significant, it's what keeps me going.

Amongst the Waves - Mother of Pearl, Silver and Bubble Asymmetrical Necklace

Always yearning for new sensations. I have done a lot of traveling to remote places not yet discovered by most and have really absorbed different cultures and art. Pisces are often stimulated by water and especially the ocean. I started making jewelry while traveling in Costa Rica many years ago when I had once again packed up and left everything behind. Being a typical Pisces bohemian I learned the basics of jewelry making by the ocean. I have been evolving ever since and am exploring new techniques, styles and mediums in my work.

With time I have learned to channel my psychological penchants into various forms of art as I walk the path of the mystic becoming truly conscious of the great mystery playing through the waters of awareness.

To read more New Moon Artist features please click the link!

Pisces New Moon Musings

This month the new moon enters the sign of Pisces, a mutable water sign. This means that Piscean types are often beyond definition and a wee bit hard to pin down! Some keywords for Pisces are “I believe”, compassionate, intuitive, artistic, introspective and friendly. I love being amidst Piscean energy because it’s like swimming in a world without boundaries - so freeing! The shadow side of Pisces relates to forgetfulness, martyrdom, melancholy and feeling misunderstood. Pisces also relates to the feet so next time you visit your favorite Pisces check out their shoe collection, I bet you’ll be impressed!

So, on March 15, 2010 when the New Moon enters Pisces get ready to:

- Take time for dreams, intuitive play, artistic pursuits and escapism

- Get romantic and get spoiled

- Really listen and empathize with a friend’s woes

- Meditate, relax, recharge and space out!

More About The Lunar Cycles

The new moon is the perfect time of the month to plant seeds of intention for the month ahead. It is a time of trust, of beginnings and of letting go into intuition. The new moon lies in darkness, not yet reflecting the light of the sun, so our intentions may not yet be fully revealed to us and therefore trust is necessary - trust and faith that your newly planted seeds are indeed germinating beneath ground.

Allow the moon maiden/mother/crone to be your touchstone for balance, serenity and divine knowing. Let her cool, pale fingers touch your spirit as your soul flows knowingly, calmly, and with strength into divine being-ness. Allow her to be your support system to keep you pure, whole, holy and connected with your soul’s true purpose. Bless her as you bless yourself, for truly, we are all One.

The moon changes signs approximately every 2 ½ days, going through all twelve signs of the Zodiac every 29 ½ days. The sign that the moon is in reflects qualities of your inner self and being-ness. Each month there is at least one new moon that will rise at sunrise and set at sunset. Astrologically speaking this means that the sun and the moon are in conjunction.

Pisces Meditation and Affirmation:

“To feel love is pure warmth, wholeness, open-ness, selfless-ness, shameless, guiltless joy – that is love.”

More Piscean Stuff

Pisces – The fish

Time of Year – Winter to spring

Quality – Mutable

Element – Water

Ruler – Neptune

Anatomy – Feet, lymph system

Natural sign of – 12th house

Opposite sign – Virgo

Color – Sea green, turquoise, lavender

Gemstone – Aquamarine, chrysolite, moonstone

Tarot card – The moon

Goddesses – Atanu, Dahud, Nix, Oto, Ran

A Message From Aquamarine

Pisces needs freedom to dream. What dreams are you holding onto? What dreams are buried within your soul? Let them out and onto paper, even if you’re unsure and feeling scared. Know that love that awaits you. Be brave.

What do your dreams look like, feel like, taste like, sound like? Start out by writing down some keywords to get your juices flowing and then allow them to flow into a river as your dreams start to flow out of you.

Try sleeping with an aquamarine or a picture of one under your pillow at night and make sure to request dreams of intention, and dreams of happiness and love. Allow visions to flow through you while sleeping and be ready with pen and paper to record them when you awaken.

My Version of Pisces

“Guess Poet” is part of a series of left-handed drawings I created over a period of five years. These drawings were later turned into an oracle card deck that I use for soul readings.

Guess Poet encourages all of us to water our souls by closing our eyes and gazing within our soul’s interior. What do you see, or better yet, what do you feel? Is there anyone else there with you? If you start to feel sleepy and want to wake up, make sure to have a glass of water handy. Now, open your eyes and ask yourself, “What parts of this inner vision do I see around me?” Explain.

If you can see your inner vision expressed in the outer world, congratulations! If not, you need a warm fuzzy hug and then I have a question for you, “How can you bring this vision into reality?” Now, make a wish list of at least three things you would like to express. Next, turn those three things into intentions knowing this is something you will put into play in the month ahead.

Kathy Crabbe is a soul reader and artist who has devoted her life to exploring spirituality and creativity with passion and integrity. Her art and writing have been published and shown throughout the world at museum shows, galleries, magazines and books. Through online resources Kathy is able to help other soul seekers express their unique gifts and talents in empowering ways. She maintains two blogs and a website sharing her experiences with the psychic, intuitive realms and the world of art making. You can find her online at http://KathyCrabbe.com The artwork featured above is from Kathy’s Goddess Zodiac deck and Lefty Oracle deck, two of the four decks she incorporates into her soul readings.

Kathy is currently teaching “Awaken the Divine Feminine” at the Wise Woman University. “I hope this course inspires you to discover and express your passionate, intuitive selves. As women I believe the moon can help guide and challenge us to know our instinctual, emotional self in a balanced, harmonious and soulful way. Isn’t it time you awakened the divine feminine within yourself?”

Sparkly Blessings to All!
Kathy Crabbe

Piscean New Moon Heavy Metal Artist, Steff

New Moon in PiscesMarch 15, 2010 12:01 pm PDT

Our feelings and sensitivities flow during this changeable watery New Moon in Pisces. When not seeking solitude, we may feel the urge to merge into heart and spirit space. Let the poet within out to play as you channel the intuitive, imaginative energy of Pisces. Excerpted from the We'Moon Datebook.

This month I am featuring two Piscean artists, the first is Steff of SteffMetal, an unusual combination of Piscean strength, passion and Heavy Metal! The second is Lynn (coming up next) a jeweler who calls herself a 'typical bohemian Pisces' so stay tuned!

Steff Green/Steff Metal Auckland, New Zealand Steff Metal Art Blogazine Weird Weddings

In most senses I am a typical Pisces. My head is so far up in the clouds it’s a wonder I’m not accidentally sniffing the armpits of angels. My husband calls me “the luckiest train wreck”. I am the eternal optimist, the person who sees every side of the argument and can’t say a bad word about anyone. The girl who can recite the phone number of every friend she’s ever had but can’t remember which day to take the garbage out.

Cemetery Picnic Print

Creativity isn’t something I have to do, it’s always been something I just do, like eating or sleeping or walking. It’s innate. Also, I’ve always felt my life was “bigger” than myself somehow, that everything I chose to do led me towards some important purpose I haven’t seen yet.

Why Heavy Metal artwork? For a Piscean, who is by nature weak-willed and prone to being walked-over, heavy metal gives strength – Heavy Metal says “you can”. Heavy Metal says “You don’t have to like me, I’m happy being me”. And, when need be, Heavy Metal says “Piss Off”. Something a Piscean would never dream of saying.

Custom Wedding Portrait - Gothic bride and groom

It’s powerful, passionate music made by people who believe heart and soul in the things they say, and in the same way that Pisceans are attracted to powerful lovers, it draws me in. It gives me tools to do the impossible.

Also, it gives me that sense of being part of something bigger than myself. The metal community is like this. It accepts with open arms anyone who takes the music into their life, regardless of race, creed, social standing, disability or personality. It’s a community of artists, musicians, dancers, dreamers and warriors.

Corpsepaint Kitty on the Fence Print

My art is for this community and for the extended network of friends, friends of friends, and friends-I-have-yet-to-meet, who share a love of this music. It’s for the artists who touch our lives and the music that feels our souls.

You can find more New Moon Artists by clicking the link.