Warm and bleeding - you like it rough."I guess I don't care..." from 'Like You' by Kristin Hersh - Strange Angels.
Aching for you? I'm not breaking any rules. I'm not feeling cohesive anymore.
The Ancestors speak:
Turn misery into gold,
tears catch flight,
turn into butterflies,
pain becomes water,
washing me clean,
pure.
I bathe and laugh. I am whole and lucky, plus I like spiders (mostly).
I'm gonna erase your softness, turn you invisible.
"When are you thinking of disappearing?" From "Nothing but Heartache in Your Social Life" by Gordon Downie - Coke Machine Glow.
If you were here, I'd sit you at the base of my painting and drip Iridescent Stainless Steel (Coarse) paint over you. Invisible at night, with a dash of brown ink spatters until you and the paint-ing speak as one: "Make me whole" - untouchable, perfect, forever, until tonight.
Five days later I return to this painting not sure if I can continue. The pain is gone for now - only the painting remains.
It feels like a pupae or some kind of deep sea creature, pregnant, ready to burst, release joy into the world, not hurt. I will leave it for now, start fresh. The journey continues...
Invisible at Night - acrylic & pastel on silk - 4' x 5'Musical Inspiration: Kristin Hersh - "Strange Angels", Gordon Downie - "Coke Machine Glow".